Doc- “Are you suicidal?”
Me- “Depends on what you mean?”
Doc- “Have you tried to kill yourself?”
Me- “I’ve never tried. But I have thought of ways. And not a day goes by that I don’t think about how death would be a relief. An escape from the monster. A quieting of the voices. A long needed restful sleep. Finally, some damn peace.
Doc- ” Well at least you’re not suicidal.”
Scene 1- “Your friend slit her wrists. She’s in the hospital.”
Scene 2- “Your brother took a bottle of pills. The ambulance is here.”
Scene 3- “Your friend just killed himself.”
Scene 4- “Mom, I took alot of pills. I’m sick.”
These are all scenes from my life.
Do you know what the common denominator is? They were all trying to escape a traumatic period in their lives. Trying to quiet the voices. Trying to numb the pain.
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